What’s one item of clothing you’ve always wanted? Maybe it’s a specific pair of limited edition sneakers, or some crazy high end outfit you saw in a music video. No matter your taste, we all have certain items we come across that just feel like we HAVE to have them. Not in a shopping impulse kind of way, but something deeper. Maybe in high school you saw a really cool jacket at the mall, so you got a part time job and saved up for it, or something similar. Well, these days I have a list of things I really want, but in the beginning, all I wanted was a black and white striped shirt.
I know, it’s pretty basic, but that’s one of the things I love about it. Also, as a pop punk kid, stripes were a big part of the style in the early 2000s, and back then, I was an idiot. I honestly didn’t start buying my own clothes until 2008, and even then I didn’t really know what I was doing. I used to feel out of place in anything that wasn’t a band shirt because I had no idea how to represent my culture properly. I had no sense of style. So when I put this look together, for my first shoot as my true, authentic self, I knew immediately that it was time to grab a striped shirt. Well, thank goodness for the all too convenient demon Amazon, cause I found this shirt immediately, and luckily I already had the striped beanie to match. The Lydia Collar from SKG Designs I got because I felt like it was the perfect piece to kind of spice up what I knew was a perfectly plain outfit. T-shirt and leather jacket is a timeless look that almost always works in my opinion, but it doesn’t have the immediate punk rock connotation it once had, so the collar kind of doubles down on that. For some reason I hadn’t thought to purchase black jeans for this, but the dark blue worked out just fine, and no pop punk outfit is complete without vans or converse, and that morning my black vans just felt right.
This look was the beginning for me. As silly as it had seemed, I’d finally gotten my striped shirt, and with it, a sense of who I wanted to be, and what I want the world to see when it looks at me. For the first time in my life, I felt self confidence, self-love, and actually wanted people to “judge a book buy it’s cover” when they looked my way. This outfit, this photoshoot, was the debut of not only my sense of style, but myself as a trans woman, and it filled me with the confidence to look the world in the face with a smile.
Associated Song: Here I Am- Camp Rock Soundtrack
Photography: Jasemine Denise Photography